Another Restless Night

What is my problem? Okay maybe – just maybe – it has something to do with the fact that I stayed up and watched a somewhat scary movie all by myself (What Lies Beneath). I didn’t exactly give me nightmares, but I didn’t sleep good either.

I tossed and turned most of the night. I had dreams about my girlfriend who is in Germany for World Cup Soccer. I guess in the back of my head I was thinking she must have been devastated that the US was eliminated yesterday and wondered if she was headed home now. Or was she going to stay for the another week?

I think part of my problem is that I’m excessively annoyed lately with a lot of things. Things at work; things at home; things buried deep inside my head. I like to get into the office super early before anyone else gets there and read email, make coffee, drink coffee, write the blog. I used to be the first one there. No longer. We have a new gal who arrives practically before day break. Now don’t get me wrong – she’s a super nice gal. But I have this routine I don’t like being messed with. I like complete and utter silence before I speak to anyone and before I have my cup of coffee. It’s my little way of easing into the day.

She asks me work questions before my brain has started to function. I need this time before I can face the day and start the day. Please don’t ask my any questions. Please. I need to find my happy place before I can deal with anything.

Is that selfish? Maybe I should drag my feet in the morning and just do it all before I leave the house and arrive at the appointed start time of the office instead of arriving 30-45 minutes. Maybe. I don’t know.

Anyway… so last night I had the kiddo who crashed the second we hit the door. Slept until 7:30 and then woke up and asked for a little snack. Didn’t really want dinner. He watched a few cartoons and then it was time to go home. Since his dad is working on Saturday, he’s spending the night with me tonight and then we’re going to do some stuff tomorrow. Have no idea what.

After I took him home, I yakked on the phone with Brother and Sysenlaw about The Collective You, which, if you’re interested, is going to be going live next week with our first podcast. We’re still trying to decide what to do with the blog. It’s a work in progress. Brother says – you’re the writer, write something. As if it’s that easy! LOL! We have some stuff up on the website and I need to write a bio for my page, but it’s coming along.

Then I did something I rarely do – at 9 pm I shut down the computer and went and laid on the couch like a slug. I watched a really bad movie with Rosanna Arquette and Melissa Gilbert and for about 20 minutes (why that long I have no idea) and then flipped to TNT and watched What Lies Beneath. Harrison Ford’s character still surprises me.

So. No writing last night. Even though I’ve been thinking about it a lot. I have almost decided on a title for Book 1 and Book 2, so I’ll announce that (and the winners) soon.

Okay enough of this rambling mess. I swear this blog entry is a train wreck. I gotta get to work.

Happy Friday everyone!

By Michelle

I wish you all could be inside my head. The conversation is sparkling.