Most Repeated Phrase of the Weekend: “Leave the cat alone.”

The temperature right now is 27 degrees F. OH MY GAW it’s cold. Now you have to remember, I’m a thin-skinned Texan, so that’s really dang cold. The high is supposed to be 30 today. The weather folks promised rain and sleet starting after midnight. We didn’t get ANY. Which is really kind of good since the roads would have been a nice sheen of ice. We’re supposed to get some off and on rain/sleet today and tomorrow.

I’m waiting around all dang day for the satellite dude to show up. UGH. I hate waiting for that sort of thing. But, alas, a necessary evil if I want my Food Network. Right? Sweetie Boy is watching Wallace & Gromit for the second time this weekend (and it’s only Saturday morning!). He’s a great kid. I picked him up early and we went to Wal-Mart :dead: yesterday before the Great Ice Storm of 2006 hit (sarcasm). It could have been a lot worse than it was. I bought lots of food and some much needed necessities - like a broom and a dustpan and a toaster. I was proud of myself for staying within my budget of $100. I spent exactly $99. Wal-Mart ROCKS.
:rockin:

Anyway, we got back home and I realized I had no pitcher of any sort to make his requested lemonade. So it was back to the grocery store :dead: for that. Luckily, the local store had one and I was able to go through the self-check line and not wait forever to get out of there. Back at home, I made Spiderman mac & cheese, of which he didn’t eat. Kids. Anyway, we had a nice evening and watched some Olympics after his movie went off. When he started yawning big time, I put him to bed. He was out in minutes. I tried to get back to watching the Olympics only to crash on the couch about 10ish.

Later on today I’m going to clean the bathrooms and start some laundry. Tomorrow, weather permitting, I’m going to try to take Sweetie Boy to see 8 Below because he’s dying to see it. I thought it’d be fun to go to the movies. I hope it’s appropriate for his age. If not, then it’s Curious George.

And then Monday comes and the week starts all over again. Thursday and Friday I have a “marketing retreat” which means I will be sans computer for two days (OMG!). Hopefully the hotel has wireless Internet and I can at least check email and blog.

Oh and I have one of this horrible zits that is under the skin right ON my left eyebrow. What is UP with that? You’d think being over 30 would make those horrible things STOP.
:wtf:

It’s a nice weekend so far. I hope that satellite dude hurries up so I don’t have to wait around all dang day. Not that I have any where to go since it’s so bloody cold…

Quote of the Day:
Seek respect mainly from thyself, for it comes first from within.
- Steven H. Coogler

My horoscope for the day seems to be telling me something:

After all that tension and nonsense, you’re golden. The universe has finally seen fit to arrange for things to go easily for you — yes, just this once. And as for that new admirer who hasn’t exactly been easy to get together with? All those roadblocks will be removed and connecting will actually be easy. Now stop worrying about what’s in the past. It may not have been pleasant, but it’s over.

Okay, I get it! Stop being a worrier. Right? Sometimes that’s easier said than done.

Thanks to everyone who responded to my desolate entry yesterday. It’s times like these when you know who your true friends are and I have discovered I have quite a lot of them. I love you all. Now then, you made me get all mushy and shit, so thanks for that.

I had a nice long talk with my best good friend yesterday afternoon. She made a lot of sense. Thanks, girl. You know I needed that. It helped to put my mind at ease. Coming to grips with my situation is what I need to do. It’s time to get over the past, stop torturing myself, and move on. I know this, in the back of my mind. I really do. But getting there and making myself see the light at the end of the tunnel is a difficult thing. It’s hard when all I can think about is the well-being of my child.

Anyway…It’ll get better. It has to. Right?

This weekend, Winter makes another appearance here in North Texas. It’s going to be COOOOOOOOOOOOLD and by that I mean, it won’t get out of the 30s for the high all weekend. We’re supposed to have sleet and ice Saturday and Sunday too. I’ll have my son with me all weekend, so we’re going to cozy up with the cat and wait it out. Wish I could get out and take him somewhere, but it doesn’t look like that’s going to work out. The satellite dude is supposed to show up tomorrow between the convenient hours of 8-5. I hope he doesn’t cancel on me with the foul weather. If it’s sleets and ices here in North Texas, people get weird. No one knows how to drive on it down here and I’m betting there’ll be quite a few wrecks this weekend. I’m staying in for sure. I need to get to the grocery store this weekend and get some food before the ice storm hits. THAT should be lovely, let me tell you. I’m sure there are those who are stocking up on stuff. I should have gone last night, but Sweetie Boy and I went to Applebee’s for our Thursday night out and then we went back to my house and he played with the cat. Then I watched the encore presentation of Grey’s Anatomy.

I missed the big episode after the Super Bowl. I knew the gist of the story, so I was glad to see the second part. I LOVED the end where Derek is telling Meredith about their last kiss. Talk about romantic. It made me swoon.

My Sysenlaw has her test today for work. Good luck! Let me know how it goes!

Okay… Off to work.

Quote of the Day:
Traditions are group efforts to keep the unexpected from happening.
-Barbara Tober

Well I’m finally getting around to blogging. This morning was kinda hectic with work and stuff. I stayed late last night and got those nine submittals out the door. I made all the file copies this morning and am trying to get motivated to work on other stuff. I just don’t have the motivation. WHERE is my motivation?

Got home about 7:30 last night to find a note on my door from my neighbor saying there was a man spotted prowling around our building. Nice. Needless to say, I was freaked out all evening. I did manage to watch LOST. It was a good episode but I didn’t think it was all that great. Sayid is a compelling and interesting character and I just think they may have led him in the wrong direction with all the torture stuff. We’ll see. Next week, however, looks GREAT. And tonight there’s an encore presentation of the Grey’s Anatomy that I missed. Hooray! I hope I get to see that.

I made the mistake of laying my head down during LOST. I started to doze off and then Sampson climbed up on the couch beside me and made it all nice and warm and cozy. It’s hard NOT to fall asleep when you have a purry cat next to you. He didn’t stay long and then went to his normal spot under the bed. At least he doesn’t hiss and growl at me any more. He greeted me at the door last night, rubbed on my legs, followed me around. I fed him and gave him a treat. He doesn’t talk much and he mostly keeps to himself. He’s a great cat. Calm, cool, and collected. About the only thing he does that’s annoying is get on top of the dining room table.

The last few days have been difficult for me. I’ve been battling all these inner fears. I’m making myself miserable. I need to stop beating myself up about things and just get over it but sometimes that’s easier said than done. I’m battling bouts of depression. Tuesday was a particularly difficult day as I fought the urge to sit and weep at my desk all day. I’m pathetic. So pathetic I annoy myself. I guess I have this gigantic fear that my son will forget me, especially since I have a feeling that someone else will be entering the picture very soon. Proof that men cannot live without a woman. I need to establish boundaries and quickly before things go any further. And if I happen to create a war between me and my soon-to-be ex-spouse, then so be it.

No writing to speak of and damn do I have a lot of work to be done on the contest. I NEED to read those entries. I looked at the pile last night. I just couldn’t face it. Instead, I laid on the couch and tried to watch the Olympics and promptly fell asleep. I woke up sometime later with David Finfrock saying something about arctic air. Is it supposed to be cold this weekend? I have NO clue and I’m so out of touch with the news and the weather and everything. Guess I better watch some news soon.

Oh… I managed to fix my doorknob. It wasn’t as big a tragedy as I thought it would be.

Quote of the Day:
The most important thing a father can do for his children is to love their mother.
- Theodore Hesburgh

I’m better today. Somewhat hung over, but better. I visited with my Sweetie Boy last night and he gave me a sweet valentine. So I did, after all, get a valentine from the one I love best. I hung around the house for as long as I could (mostly to be annoying to someone who doesn’t matter any more) and then headed to McDonald’s for a rousing dinner of a quarter pounder with cheese and fries.

The TV antenna I bought works. I watched some of the Olympics and drank two glasses of wine. I started reading the entries I’m supposed to judge. I got to page six of the first one and was so bored out of my skull I couldn’t take it anymore. The writing was flat and just lacked enthusiasm. I made a few notes along the way. I have no idea how I’m going to get through this entry. Maybe more wine is in order.

Sweetie Boy called me at his bedtime and I asked him if his dad read him a book. He said he wanted me to. Luckily, I have a copy of his favorite book – Could Be Worse – and so I told him to pull it out and we read it together over the phone. I love hearing his sweet little voice reading those words back to me.

Anyway… lots to do today. I gotta get back to it. I have those nine submittals going out.

(Ew, that title sounds like a disease)

Oh, Valentine. Doth thou pierce my heart with love or is it merely a :censored: heart attack?

Sorry. What started off as poetry turned into something else.

NOTHING has gone right today. Went to the apartment to meet the satellite guy. Long story short, I tried to hook up an old box I already had last week. It didn’t work. They wanted to upgrade me, I told them to forget it. Apparently, they didn’t cancel the service call because THAT’S the guy that arrived today. Figures. I called the OTHER PLACE who shall SBC remain nameless SBC but suffice it to say they are a bunch of SBC :censored: idiots. It amazes me apartment complexes can totally screw with their residents like this. What happened to having a choice? Only one mile up the road I could have whatever service provider I wanted. Instead, I’m locked into having SBC DSL and SBC Home Entertainment. What a bunch of bullshit. What a racket. Now I’m stuck waiting all damn day on Saturday for SBC Home Enterfuckingtainment to send someone out. :yelling:

And the door knob on my bedroom door fell off.

Forgive my ranting. I should count my lucky stars I woke up breathing today and stop bitching. But this isn’t the only thing that’s happened today. I have other issues I can’t go into here. Instead, I’ll let Happy Bunny sum it up for me.

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Quote of the Day:
There is only one happiness in life, to love and be loved.
- George Sand

It’s Valentine’s Day. I had a boyfriend once that broke up with me on V-Day, so you’ll forgive me if I’m not all hearts-and-flowers today. :talktohand:

It’s really overrated anyway, isn’t it? That’s what we women want you men to think anyway. Secretly, we desire flowers and chocolate and cheesey stuffed bears that say “I love you beary much”. Men, don’t disappoint your girl today. Ok?

Perhaps the quote of the day is right – the only happiness in life is to love and be loved. By someone special. Be it your significant other or your child(ren) or even your pet. But then again…isn’t happiness a state of mind? Isn’t happiness obtained by loving your own life and who you are? Not what someone says to you or how they make you feel. Granted, being loved is one of the best things about living. Knowing that somewhere someone out there loves you unconditionally.

Anyway… Last night I ran by the grocery store and picked up a few things. Namely, a little something for my son on this Day Of Love. :dead: I’ll be dropping by the house tonight to see him and give him a big hug and a kiss. I’m looking forward to that. I also picked up some treats for Sampson and headed back to the apartment armed with Pounce and Iams tuna in gravy. I tempted him with the food and he actually let me pet him. No purring as yet but he did pet himself and eat his treat from my hand. Then he hissed at me and went about his merry way.

I found him on the dining room table at about midnight. He hissed at me.

I heard him scratching in the cat box sometime during the middle of the night.

This morning, I got up, fed him and he poked his head out from under the bed. He looked at me as if to say “You fed me?” and then came on over for a couple of nibbles. I tempted him with more Pounce. He petted himself, meowed and then wandered around the apartment. As I put on my make-up, he came in the bathroom and rubbed on my legs. Then hissed and went back under the bed. :hehe:

At least he’s warming up to me. Somewhat.

LOTS of work to do today and I have to leave early to go meet the satellite dude. They changed my install date to today which is kinda good because now I won’t miss LOST on Wednesday. I’m so glad to have some TV channels back!

Quote of the Day:
Some of us are boot girls. Others—the Goody Two-Shoes of this world—are not.
–Catherine Wilson, Harper’s Bazaar

I got a cat! He’s gray and white, declawed and neutered and his name is Sampson. Oh he’s sweet! Of course he hates me right now but he’ll get over it. He growled and hissed at me as I left for work this morning. AW, kitty. I love you.

I actually found him through the newspaper’s online ads. A couple was getting rid of their two cats because their young children had allergies. I went over and met Sampson. When I rang the doorbell, he ran to the door like a dog. Cracked me up. At the time, he was super friendly. Did the whole pet-himself-on-my-hand thing. I love that about cats. He purred and meowed. I left to buy a litter box (got the starter kit) and when I came back, they had managed to get the cat in the carrier for the ride to his new home. Needless to say, he was NOT happy. The cool thing was they gave me the rest of their food, a whole new thing of litter, a very cool auto-water dish, AND the carrier.

Sampson didn’t want to come out of his crate when I got him home. I fixed up the cat box, put his food and water out, and tried to coax him. He hissed and then growled at me. :hehe: He finally let me pet him on the head later, but he still wouldn’t come out. Sometime during the night, he ended up under the bed. I found him this morning and he growled and hissed. Not a happy kitty at all. Poor fella. He’s just in a new place with new people and he can’t figure out why. I know JUST how that feels too. I think we’ll get along famously.

Tonight, I’m going to swing by the pet store and see if I can get him a special treat that will make him like me.

I had dinner with my old friend last night at this local Mexican place. I had a beer (YUM) and she had a margarita on the rocks. We talked and discovered that after 10+ years, we aren’t so different from each other after all. We still kept in touch through the years after school, but we really never hung out much. It seems we have more in common these days than we did years ago. And we agreed we should see each other more than once a year!

Saturday my satellite TV will finally be hooked up! Thank goodness. I am about to go MAD. I’d like to at least watch the local news and see what the weather is like. I’ve been missing my favorite shows, the hockey games, and now the Winter Olympics. I love the Winter Olympics!

Well…time to work. My Girl Scout Cookies came in today. Holy crap I spent $17.50 on them. Like I need that many…

I was completely lazy and lounged in bed until 11 this morning. Then I got up, showered, and dropped $50 at Wal-Mart. :hyper:

My washer and dryer delivered yesterday. They were supposed to be here between 4:30 and 7 but didn’t arrived until - get this - 10 pm! They were, clearly, running far behind. They installed it, though, and went on their merry way and today I’m doing all four loads of laundry - all mine. Seems strange.

I keep telling myself I’m okay and that everything will be fine. But sometimes I have moments that sneak up on me. Like doing laundry just for me. Then I have to sit down and just weep. And that just irritates me because I’m a weepy mess.

I got the desk all in order last night. It has a comfortable amount of clutter. I love clutter. I need clutter. At least I can find stuff again and everything is out of boxes. I just have to find something to put all the DVDs on so I can get them out of a box and all will be unpacked. Until I get back to the house and get more of my crap. How did I accumulate so much shit?

This morning in the shower as I was shaving my legs, I shaved off the first layer of skin on the back of my ankle. Yeoch. Bled forever and of course I wasn’t equipped with band-aids yet. That was a purchase at Wal-Mart this afternoon.

And last but not least…my good friend from high school will be joining me for dinner tonight. We’re headed off to a little corner Mexican place up the road. Should be fun to catch up. This is a weird thing for me - going out on a “school night”. :hehe:

I have Internet at home now!
:woohoo:
I is a happy girl.

I can now do all that computer stuff I need to do in the evening. Yay me!

Had my chapter meeting today and it was fabo as usual. Now I must go unpack the rest of of my crapola. More tomorrow.

:wave:

Quote of the Day:
Right actions for the future are the best apologies for wrong ones in the past.
- Tyron Edwards

Whew! Yesterday was so busy at the office! And it’s just going to be that way until the end of the month. We have 11 submittals going out on Wednesday, which means I need to come up with 11 fantastic covers. Yikes. Then I have two more the week of the 20th and THEN on the 23rd and 24th, we have a marketing retreat. Which means I will have no internet access, which in turn means I will be going through complete withdrawals.

Got an email from my new editor at Inara Press last night. She introduced herself and notified me of my release date:

May 26

That’s ONE day before my birthday. What a terrific present! I should have cover art soon. I can’t wait to see it. I imagine something Indiana Jones-esque since it is an action/adventure story. Hopefully, they will come up with something better than what I had over at KIC (even though I was satisfied with that artwork … whatever they come up with has got to just ROCK). Anyway, I have to have all twelve issues done and in by April 19. Should be no problem since it’s already written.

Sysenlaw tagged me with this:

Four jobs I’ve had:
1. Word Processor for an environmental engineering firm (first real office job)
2. Construction accounting for a general contractor (job that nearly drove me to alcoholism :hehe:)
3. Marketing Assistant for an architectural/engineering firm (current job)
4. WRITER extraordinaire. (Just kidding)

Four movies I could watch over and over:
1. The Princess Bride
2. Raiders of the Lost Ark
3. The Empire Strikes Back
4. Gone With The Wind

Four places I have lived:
1. Mesquite, TX
2. Addison, TX
3. North Richland Hills, TX
(I’ve never been nomadic…lol)

Four TV shows I watch:
1. Lost
2. Desperate Housewives
3. Grey’s Anatomy
4. The Dallas Stars

Four places I’ve vacationed:
1. Los Angeles, CA
2. Washington, DC
3. Las Vegas, NV
4. Austin/San Antonio/Galveston, TX

Four of my favorite dishes:
1. Fried Chicken
2. Anything from Cabo Grande (Mexican – YUM)
3. Sweet & Sour Chicken from PF Chang’s
4. A Braum’s cheeseburger…salivating

Four sites I visit daily:
1. Ink In My Coffee
2. Ramblings of a Suburban Soccer Mom
3. The Spinning Pen
4. my writers forum

And a whole mess of other blogs I don’t have room to list.

Four places I would rather be:
1. In bed
2. In Scotland
3. In Ireland
4. In a castle

I’m tagging Mawra, Lara, Colin, and Sandy S

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