Get the “Funk” Out
I’ve been in this funk lately. Well, actually for a long while. It seems to come and go. It goes up and down. I was in a down slide recently. I’m battling back uphill now. It’s hard to explain this funk I’ve been in but I can tell I’ve started to get lazy with things. Like clothes. I don’t dress like I used to and there are reasons for that I can’t go into. I’ve been depressed about work and some things going on there, which I can’t really discuss either. Alas, I’ve made it a rule never to talk about specifics of the day job.
Anyway. Back to the funk. I think I finally got a point where I said “eff it” and decided to give myself an attitude adjustment. I’ve decided I’m going to wear what I want, when I want. I’m not going to stop being ME and if people don’t like it, then I guess that’s too bad for them. Yeah, I tend to say what I think but I’ve curbed most of that over the last year and a half. In the corporate world, I generally have to keep my opinion to myself and I’ll continue to play by that rule. But only somewhat. 😉 I’m going to wear my blue nail polish whether anyone likes it or not. (Yes, I have blue fingernails and you know what? I *like* it.)
This is going to come as a shock to some of you who know me, follow me on Twitter and Facebook and read my Stiletto blog…but I’ve actually stopped wearing my cute shoes. I *know*! It’s ghastly. That’s how lazy I’ve gotten about my wardrobe. NO MORE. I’m going to wear my high heels, too.
I’ve also decided I need to stop ignoring my free YMCA membership and actually use it. I started yoga on Monday night. It was just over an hour and by the time I left there, I felt pretty good. Yesterday I felt amazing. Next I’m going to try some body toning, kickboxing, pilates. I’m going to try most of the group exercise classes (except for the spin class because I just can’t go there) because I think it will help my mental state, not to mention my physical one. My waistline has started to expand. My thighs are disgusting. I don’t give a rat’s ass that it’s “swim suit weather” because I don’t do that but I DO care that I’m gaining weight, feeling bloating and depressed and I needed to do something about it. If nothing else, I’m going to get to the yoga class every Monday night. It’s only an hour out of my life a week, right? I can do that, right?
I’m trying really hard to get the funk out. I’m trying to have a better state of mind. I’m trying to adjust my attitude.
And I swear, as God as my witness, I’m going to do it smiling.
I just like to smile. Smiling’s my favorite. — Buddy, Elf