Good Days & Bad Days

Here’s a funny: yesterday I got recruited by a different recruiter for the same job I interviewed for last week. Hey, at least I knew all about the job already. 🙂

I have good days and bad days when it comes to this unemployment thing. On the good days, I think I can so do this. Write, sell, promote. And then start all over again. I get pumped up and excited. I plant my ass in my chair and don’t move until I reach my quota.

On the bad days, I think there is no freaking way I can do this. I look at the mountain of bills and just get depressed. But then I think… it’s just bills. As long as we have a roof, food, and enough money to put gas in the cars, that’s all that matters right? And then I worry about my credit rating and what will happen if it sinks. And I wonder if we’ll be stuck in this godforsaken house forever. Not that it’s a bad house, mind you. But there are a lot of things that need fixing. Like the fence. Which is falling down.

I try not to think about those things.

Yesterday was a pretty good day. I managed a total of 3213 words on the new story. My goal was to write 2,000 words. I wasn’t going to move until I did it. But then I got on a roll and just kept going and TADA. I met and exceeded my goal. This is something I need to do every day. I confess, I suck at this self-motivation thing sometimes. But I found yesterday that when I sat down and just wrote and didn’t worry about anything else (email, Twitter, Facebook), it was all good. It was productive. I’m getting better at it. 🙂

I didn’t get any writing done on Monday. Instead, the morning hours were full of errands and getting stuff done. Then the afternoon I was at the salon for a couple of hours. Yes, I know this is probably something I could give up to save some pennies but I’m leaving for New York in less than two weeks and I needed to not have roots showing. 😉

By Michelle

I wish you all could be inside my head. The conversation is sparkling.