I’ve been in this funk lately. Well, actually for a long while. It seems to come and go. It goes up and down. I was in a down slide recently. I’m battling back uphill now. It’s hard to explain this funk I’ve been in but I can tell I’ve started to get lazy with things. Like clothes. I don’t dress like I used to and there are reasons for that I can’t go into. I’ve been depressed about work and some things going on there, which I can’t really discuss either. Alas, I’ve made it a rule never to talk about specifics of the day job.
Anyway. Back to the funk. I think I finally got a point where I said “eff it” and decided to give myself an attitude adjustment. I’ve decided I’m going to wear what I want, when I want. I’m not going to stop being ME and if people don’t like it, then I guess that’s too bad for them. Yeah, I tend to say what I think but I’ve curbed most of that over the last year and a half. In the corporate world, I generally have to keep my opinion to myself and I’ll continue to play by that rule. But only somewhat. 😉 I’m going to wear my blue nail polish whether anyone likes it or not. (Yes, I have blue fingernails and you know what? I *like* it.)
This is going to come as a shock to some of you who know me, follow me on Twitter and Facebook and read my Stiletto blog…but I’ve actually stopped wearing my cute shoes. I *know*! It’s ghastly. That’s how lazy I’ve gotten about my wardrobe. NO MORE. I’m going to wear my high heels, too.
I’ve also decided I need to stop ignoring my free YMCA membership and actually use it. I started yoga on Monday night. It was just over an hour and by the time I left there, I felt pretty good. Yesterday I felt amazing. Next I’m going to try some body toning, kickboxing, pilates. I’m going to try most of the group exercise classes (except for the spin class because I just can’t go there) because I think it will help my mental state, not to mention my physical one. My waistline has started to expand. My thighs are disgusting. I don’t give a rat’s ass that it’s “swim suit weather” because I don’t do that but I DO care that I’m gaining weight, feeling bloating and depressed and I needed to do something about it. If nothing else, I’m going to get to the yoga class every Monday night. It’s only an hour out of my life a week, right? I can do that, right?
I’m trying really hard to get the funk out. I’m trying to have a better state of mind. I’m trying to adjust my attitude.
And I swear, as God as my witness, I’m going to do it smiling.
See? 😀
I just like to smile. Smiling’s my favorite. — Buddy, Elf
They say exercise is the BEST way to keep depression at bay. Not that you’re depressed, but it sounds like you’re feeling “down.” All those endorphins have to be good for something! 😉
I say, GOOD FOR YOU! And you know what? You should be able to wear any damn shade of nail polish you want. You’ve earned it! (Although I will say, I get more “over things” with age, since we’re the same age maybe we’re both getting “over it” a little more?)
XD
Yoga is the all-around best for both mental and physical fitness, and it opens the door to any other physical activity that interests you. My morning practice has made a huge difference in my life.
Frankly, I think it’s time to start casting around for another job. The environment has been steadily decreasing in value to you over the past year, and it’s time for a change. No matter what the experts say, there IS work out there. Just focus on the place where you want to work and convince them they can’t live without you.
Follow your heart and you’ll never go wrong. You’re beautiful, smart and a damn great person. Never believe otherwise. (hugs)
Thanks, ladies. I really want to do something in a different type of industry so I’m bidding my time and trying to figure things out. It’s a long process but I think well worth it in the end. 🙂
I notice I do that, let the cuteness go when I feel down, which only makes me feel worse. I’m a big fan of exercise and weight-loss for getting back on track. You can do it!