Quoth the Raven, Nevermore

Okay, I confess, I got this off my Starbucks cup but it’s very timely for me because of some life-changing decisions I’ve been thinking about. (If we’ve corresponded in the last few days via email, then you know what I’m talking about.)

And the only reason I read it was because I could see the first six words over my cup sleeve and it intrigued me. You are so dead on, Anne Morriss. I salute you.

The Way I See It #76
“The irony of commitment is that it’s deeply liberating-in work, in play, in love. The act frees you from the tyranny of your internal critic, from the fear that likes to dress itself up and parade around as rational hesitation. To commit is to remove your head as the barrier to your life.”
–Anne Morriss, Starbucks customer

Isn’t that so true? If we believe in ourselves, all things are possible. If we take away the stigma of fear, we can accomplish so much and become that someone we always dreamed of being. As my friend, Devon, says: get out of my own way.

I didn’t really intend to make resolutions this year – mostly because I never keep them. Instead, this year, I decided to try my hardest on everything I want to achieve. I decided to make sure I didn’t drop the ball on anything, which meant I had to be super organized and on top of things even more so than usual.

So far this year, I think I’ve done a bang-up job. I implemented workshops for the chapter; I’ve been working on getting the contest entries out to first round judges (91 electronic entries… the most we’ve EVER had!); put out fires that needed putting out (I serve on two chapter boards – yes I’m a glutton); wrote another 7,000 words on Rome; not to mention all my normal day-to-day commitments that involve my day job and my son. And then there’s spending QT with the Man.

But I can do better, I think.

I’ve reached that point in my life where sitting in Cube Land isn’t cutting it anymore. I used to be happy there, doing the tasks assigned to me.  But somehow, that’s not good enough. My brain is hungry. I want more. (Now don’t get me wrong – I like my job. I work for a great company with excellent benefits and fantastic people.) And so, I’ve been doing a lot of thinking on how to change things. It will take time. A lot of time. It will take patience. It will take commitment. Perseverance. Determination. And a lot of damned hard work. I’ve reached that point in my life where Career is a word I embrace instead of run from. Where Life is starting to take shape and meaning. Perhaps it’s because I’m nearing that scary age that involves a 4 as the first digit. Or perhaps it’s because I’ve finally decided what I want to be when I grow up.

At any rate… I don’t want to be confined to a place where I don’t control my own destiny. So I’m making plans and starting to put some things into motion. Yes, I’m vague on purpose. But there’s a reason for that. I have certain interests to protect. But if you’re smart, you can probably read between the lines to figure out what I’m getting at. 😉

Quoth the Raven, Nevermore

That’s enough deep thinking for now. LOL I’m taking today off. I think I need the mental health day, plus I can finish up the contest and not have to worry with it this weekend. (And I have oodles of vacation time…may as well make use of it.) I want to focus some time on the kiddo and relaxing. And finishing Rome! It’s time to get back to writing.

Happy weekend.