I like to think of myself as a strong woman. I’ve been through hell the last five years and still I manage to continue to hold my head up and stay strong.
You know what? I’m frigging tired. Defeated. Now that most of my anger has passed, I’ve entered the self-loathing phase of my recovery. I think this is just part of it. It sucks. 😀 As I look back on everything the last few months, I realize there was signs I ignored. There were things that happened that I thought nothing of when really it was a giant red flag waving, telling me to run as far away as possible.
I guess sh*t happens.
I still have good days and bad days. Yesterday was not a good one. So to distract myself, I wrote and I read. A lot. I know the self-loathing will pass. But in the meatime, it’s painful.
It WILL pass. And then you will be FREE of all the doubt and you will so be over it. Sometimes we need a day or two to lick our wounds before we go charging back out. You’re entitled.
Here’s to being “over it” very soon!!! Get out and do something in the sunshine! 🙂
And it’s worse because the Saturn Retrogade is on. At least with the Pluto retrograde, it was forced out into the open.
Reading and writing always help. Give yourself a few days off, think about the type of work you WANT to do — not just what you think you can land or what’s the best choice financially, but what you WANT. And then, go get it.
You can do this.
Thank you. You ladies are the best. I know I can and I WILL be fine. In fact, I’m pretty sure I’ll get something better than what I had. 🙂
Don’t wallow for too long. Make sure you get up, shower and put some makeup on. Don’t be one of those women who let themselves go. I did this for a few weeks and was totally disgusted with myself.
Find a purpose for each day.
Michelle, difficult things happen to us all. It’s what helps us grow and also sets on paths in life we really need to be on. I have known you for a long time and know you always come out on top and in a much better position. Hang in there, girlfriend.